Lullaby

I turn off the lights
and watch the sky,
the stars singing to me a song.
A duet with Mary on my radio
soothing my mind
knowing I'll do no wrong.

I turn on my side, and Ne-Yo
asks me, do I think of you at all.
I whisper yes to the empty space
around me, as I feel the tear fall.

There's no reason for me to
cry, for me to feel pain.
I know you're mine, and you're not
that far, but it hurts all the same.

Mario understands, he hears
my heart crying out for you.
Ne-Yo's question still lingers, except
now I ask, do you?

Floetry answers for you baby,
all you got to do is say yes.
Alicia says you give me butterflies,
as I feel them dance in my chest.

God sent me an angel
from the heavens above.
The sky darkens out my window
as Beyonce tells me
I'm dangerously in love.

My music is my lullaby
singing me to sleep.
My music is my voice saying words
that my mouth won't speak.

But it speaks to you, as you
lie awake in your bed.
Wondering the same thoughts
that were thought in my head.

Looking at the star shining through
your window that my closed eyes
had watched.
Thinking do I ever cross your
mind, watching time pass on your clock.

You heard the songs I heard
the words that had put me to sleep.
The songs that you sing to me silently
in my knees make me weak.

You wonder do I ever think
of you, in my sleep I hear you say.
As you close your eyes to the lullaby
I whisper for always, forever and a day

Alexa Bernard

Angry

You don't know how much you hurt me inside,
Watching you with silent eyes.

You show me you care and turn your back all the same, making me love and
hate you and your endless games.

Thoughts running through my mind, belonging to a broken heart,
Tears running down my face as you pull me apart.

A blanket unwoven left on my bed,
Sitting on the floor with my hands holding my head.

You killed me softly with all of your words,
Mine screaming to you from inside that go unheard.

Searching for that one who will set me free,
The one who'll just let me be,
The one who I want so badly to love,
The one I know for sure I can love.

I want to be loved back, love that's pure and so real.
That person's love that will make my cold heart feel.

It hurts so much for me to watch the unknown
Truthfully knowing your feelings had never grown

Laying with a dog catching flees and lies
Looking from behind the glass, crying my silent goodbye

Alexa Bernard

Deep Down

Lost in my mind

Trapped in my mind

Trapped in my body

And trapped in time

I can see the future

But the past is a blurr.

I seem so confident

And yet feel unsure

I know I'm smart

But I'm holding back

Just like the others

Yet somethings lacks

Alexa Bernard

Lost

Life a frustrating nusience. A never ending cycle of do's and don'ts, can'ts
and won'ts. Fighting back my anger, fighting back my words, losing a piece
of me, dying each time I deny myself the real me. A game it continues on and
I forever losing, never learning as it plays tricks on me. How do I learn
what I've never been taught? How do I feel what I've never felt? How do I
live the perfect life when I've only lived once? A rough draft, my life,
never to be perfect. Living each day a mistake, hoping to never wake up from
this blessing I call sleep. To be trapped in my mind forever.

Rather living life in my mind. Rather seeing with my eyes closed. Rather
seeing what can't be seen. How do I live. How do I become happy? How do I
find the me who was lost to satisfy you. You who wanted the sweet, the
innocent, the loving, the punk. The person you've grown to love, the devil
I've grown to hate. To despise, to fear. Who am I ?Who will I be? Who will
find me? When will I be me? Living my life with my mind open and my mouth
shut, fearing my words of offense will turn away those who I've worked hard
to befriend. All to be true to me? Life a blessing and a curse, life all
bittersweet, but perfect. It hurts to breathe, it hurts to see, it hurts to
be here. Never understanding what is supposed to be understood, hating the
idea of logic. Wish I could think for myself, wish I could be free. Trapped
in a world of the brain dead.

Alexa Bernard

Finally

Finally I've begun to open the door, the door once closed to my heart.

Freedom I feel as I'm released from the chains I used to bound myself

into Self destruction. Hope I see as I look into the distance, fear troubles
my

soul as I realize the journey traveled will be by myself. Tired of being
alone, tired

of feeling pain, tired of feeling trapped. The wind rusuhing in my ears

whispers "Escape, escape, escape!" as I run away from my fears, from my

doubts, from myself. All I see is sky and tears, crying out all the pain
that lived in

my heart, that kept me from really loving, from really knowing what love
was.

Crying out all the pain that blinded me, that made me protect what was
already

safe. Running faster, freedom ahead, breaking free, breaking free, breaking
free.

Finally breaking free from the expected. Am I who you thought I was? Am I

who you wanted to be? Was I? Was I? I was, but I'm free. Free to see me.

Free to actually see. No longer blind, tears dry on my face as the sun
smiles

Down on me telling me it's alright. I can finally be me. I can finally be
free. I can

breathe, I can breathe! Finally, finally, I am who I am.

Alexa Bernard

Title Undone

If you look me in the face

you can see my smile

If you look me in the eyes

you can see my trials

If you look within my heart

You can see my pain

Emotions pour from my soul

from my eyes come the rain

A jungle's what I see

as I travel my daily life

A war inside my mind

Each day I struggle to strive

Alexa Bernard